Our little love is here… he came into the world fast, furious and perfect. Everyone’s birth story is uniquely beautiful, and I’d love to share our story with you.
Our due date, December 12, 2015 came and went. With me being put on bedrest at week 30, due to the start of preterm labor, I was more than anxious for our little man to come out and play. It seemed like time went by that much slower because with every day we were told that he could come for 10 weeks! Subconsciously, I thought if I stood too long or walked too much that he would just fall out! At week 37, I was dilated to 4 and 90% effaced. Since I was taken off bedrest at 37 weeks, I did EVERYTHING I could to start labor, but he turned stubborn on us, and decided despite our efforts, that he was going to come on his own time, and that he did.
I had an interesting last trimester. Apparently I was having contractions, but I didn’t feel or notice them. In my last week of pregnancy I tried to pay extra attention to when my belly would tighten up, because at that point, I only felt slight cramps, which to be honest, barely caught my attention. Apparently the contractions were working though because my cervix was slowly opening and thinning out. When my due date hit, I noticed my braxton hicks contractions picked up as did the cramping, but still…I never felt uncomfortable enough to feel like I was in labor.
Every pregnant woman wonders what that moment will feel like when their water breaks, or when they go into labor. We all see horror stories of a huge gush of water in the middle of a store or driving in a car. Some people experience these situations, some women’s water don’t break until they’re in active labor in the hospital. Mine broke on December 14th at 0100 am after I got up to go pee for the hundredth time. I was walking back to my bed to get back into bed and all of a sudden there was a puddle of water under me. That moment was surreal! I was a mixture of asleep, panicked, excited, confused, and ready to go! All of a sudden my husband woke out of a dead sleep and saw me out of bed and immediately asked if my water broke and felt the bed, confused that it was dry. I laughed and smiled and nodded my head. He quickly jumped out of bed and got dressed. I laughed again, “Honey, we won’t be going anywhere for a while, I’m not having contractions, you can stay in your pj’s”. I texted my midwife and doula who both happened to get my message immediately, and since I wasn’t in labor, we went back to sleep, waiting to be awoken by contractions.
There are 2 homeopathic remedies known to help stimulate labor. I took those remedies at about noon, and by 1pm, I started to feel the roll of cramps stronger and stronger and stronger. They started at 1 minute long and every 5-10 minutes. They quickly progressed to 1.5-2 minutes and every 5-7 minutes and I had to close my eyes and deep breathe through them. My husband was trying to be productive and didn’t know what else to do, so he was outside hanging christmas lights and blowing leaves off our driveway. I called him and told him it was time to head to the birth center. I knew since I was already dilated to 4 and nearly 100% effaced, that labor might be quick for me.
The drive to the birth center was long. My eyes were closed nearly the entire time. I grasped my husbands hand as he coached me through breathing and did all he could to drive fast and smooth to get us there. Thankfully, we only had a 10 minute drive to our birth center where our midwife greeted us with a big smile, warm arms, and a happy birthday welcome. I remember arriving, and trying to smile, but quickly changing my smile to deep breathing. Wow those contractions got intense fast! Shortly after our birth photographer and sweet friend arrived along with our doula. I knew I needed a strategy to get through the pain, so they put a smaller birthing ball ontop of the bed, which I leaned over, still holding my husbands hand. My doula was ontop of it and quickly got a hot pack to hold to my back and front to help get me through contractions. That helped more than I thought it would.
I knew that I couldn’t get into the hot water until I was at least 7cm dilated, or the water could slow down my labor. My midwife also didn’t want to check my cervix just yet because of the increased risk of infection. She quickly changed her mind about 30 minutes after my arrival, as we all realized that my labor was farther along than we all had thought. They started the hot water in the tub, and she quickly checked me, surprised to find that I was at least 7cm dilated and 100% effaced. Into the tub I went.
From that moment on, I was in a different zone. I knew going into labor that I needed to have a strategy to get through the pain. I knew my body could get through labor and delivery, it was created to do so. The challenge was getting my mind focused in a way where I could handle and breathe through the pain. A week before labor, I found an amazing album by Lauren Daigle, “How Can It Be”. This album played from my iPhone over and over and over as I was in labor. I focused on the words, I prayed through the contractions, and it was as if my physical pain was a separate entity from the calm state of my mind. In my mind, I was in a field, arms wide open singing the words out loud as I worshiped the Lord and praised Him for bringing me through this experience.I held onto his promises and gave thanks as I prayed for strength, and it filled me with every contraction.
Be joyful ALWAYS, pray continually, give thanks in ALL THINGS. – 1 Thessalonians 5:16
I can do ALL things through CHRIST who strengthens me. – Philippians 4:13
Do not be anxious about anything but in everything through prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to the Lord. And the peace of God, which transcends all human understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Jesus Christ. -Philippians 4:6-7
My Jesus music and my husband by my side were my source of strength. I needed my husbands hand to hold onto the entire time. He was a source of strength for me through the entire process. He made me feel safe and when he sensed the pain was getting to be too strong, he leaned over and whispered prayers into my ears. I immediately felt a new found strength in those moments. Despite the pain, I could smile.
Time seemed to drift away and before I knew it, my midwife told me I could push when I felt the urge! I remember feeling excited, surprised, nervous about what was about to happen…a huge mix of feelings. All of a sudden, this wave of muscle contractions hit me and rolled from the top of my abdomen, down.
Woah! What a strong, crazy sensation! Whether my mind was ready for it or not, my body was ready to push, and I did. To be honest, I don’t know how long I pushed for, I believe it was around 20 minutes. Towards the end, my birthing coaches were amazing and told me it was time to push through that burning “ring of fire” sensation and that baby was right there! I was told exactly what to do, to listen to my body, and what was about to happen. The urges got stronger, the sensation got stronger, all of a sudden the pressure and pain didn’t go away, baby was crowning and just needed one more push. Seconds later, every ounce of pain disappeared, and the biggest rush of excitement, love, and happiness flooded over me as my baby boy was pulled up onto my chest. What a crazy feeling!!!
I remember my brain being split between new mom brain and nurse brain. Half of me was soaking in what my body just did and the beautiful creation on my bare chest, and the other half of me was going through a checklist…
- He’s crying…check
- He’s pink….check
- I heard the cord was really short, so I knew I couldn’t pull him up very far, which would risk tearing the placenta. So, baby stayed low on my abdomen.
- Cord was pulsing still…waiting for it to stop to clamp and cut it.
- I was feeling fine…no dizziness, I wasn’t bleeding uncontrollably. Thanks to my amazing midwife Ellie, she coached me through pushing without even one tiny tear! Praisealuyah!!!
It’s crazy looking back at all my brain was processing in that moment. I did it! WE did it! Thank you Jesus!
Sweet Baby Logan James LaNier
born 12/14/15 @6:05pm
Weight- 7lbs 6oz
Length- 20 1/8 inches
My husband, midwives, doula, family, photographer….everyone was amazing! It was the most crazy amazing experience of my life. The human body, the female body, is AMAZING! It is perfectly created for this. I am so blessed to have been able to have a water birth at a natural birth center exactly how I had wanted it, free of drugs and interventions, just listening to my body and going with it. I know not every woman is able to experience this kind of birth, and I am so very thankful that I could. It was such an amazing experience for our entire family.
Baby Logan…your dad and I love you with all of our hearts. You have brought so much joy to our lives. Thank you for changing our world for forever in the most amazing way!
Birth Center- Sierra Natural Birth Center
Midwife- Ellie Jasmer, CNM
Assistant Midwife- Dody Rogers, LM
Doula- Hana Sloan
Photographer- Apryle Rivera
Thank you all for such an amazing experience!